Still going...

It's been awhile, so I've decided to do another blog entry. I've had kind of pendulum effect going the last two weeks. I had a couple of days...maybe a week where I was feeling crappy about life, the universe and everything. But I had some really great days in there as well. I've managed to keep the drawing and cartooning up. I even sketched out an idea for a strip. I've been tempted to shut it down for many reasons -- all of them stupid. The one that always gets to me the most is that it's taking away from my musical efforts. That's really the old "ultra-focus"/perfectionism problem. I've actually found that my musical efforts have actually improved as pick up drawing skills and work more with them. Just getting the old conditioning out of my head is the problem. I think that might be why was having a bad week last week. The old junk keeps coming up. I'm lucky though. This time something is different. I keep being able to fight it off. I keep being able to draw and enjoy it. I keep being able to play my instruments and have fun. In fact, I've been enjoying music more lately. I've been able to pay more attention to the sound of notes...the feel of notes.
Even with the dark period, it has been a positive couple weeks. I'm feeling more interested and energized than I have for a long, long time. I'm feeling a lot more like myself. I just hope to have the strength and courage to keep going and keep doing what I'm doing.